the decision~

i just made a decision... a decision i might regret my whole life...but...i think it is stil worth it.....sad...i so fking stress i cant even convey my feelings in words...ahhhh....wat did i plan to write?...sigh.. cant remember at all....maybe will fill up the blanks when i get my thoughts in the right place...going back to msia soon lor~~~~.....miss misss misss....now i know why single women are called miss xxx....coz you are meant to miss them....^^....

a time to emo

ok..so i have finished my exam..hopefully can continue my production..HOPEFULLY..~~....sigh...but after exams..means i have the right to be emo right??~....right to be emo right?...left to be emo left?....sigh....its pretty confusing..when you are left alone at night..and nobody is around you to tell you what is wrong and rigth...and you know..exactly what you want..but..you cant do what you want..because you know it cant possibly happen...i want... i really want....but i cant tell you what i want....so pathetic...i have been lying to myself .....and to the whole world....i cant show people who i really am...because.. i have been a lie all the time...from the time my parents started teaching me..from the moment society decided what was right....there is no way.. society will accept my ways...there is no way i can do what i want in life...there is no way.. i can change what people think .....sigh... what can i do?..continue this life as a lie??...everytime... i try to shout...but the poor world doesnt listen....why?....WHY DOESNT THE WORLD LISTEN?.......emo emo emo....shout to the world the 'n'th time now....LISTEN PLZ...~~...DONT MAKE THIS WORLD LIKE WHAT IT IS~......everytime i try to be like the world.... i just feel so miserable.....maybe... i have to be forced to live like the world.....sigh...sad life.....or maybe .. i should just extinct...species like me should just extinct....and be kicked out by evolution....let the world..continue its course...and be what it wants to be....

gone for the week

i will be gone...to a place..so faraway......good bye world.....at least until the end of this saturday...

red bean

what i want...

LOL...some people ask me..what do i really want in life...
well..not much just:

1. A simple place to shield me from the cold hot wind sun
2. A friend that understands me...(preferably a girl so she can be my wife..XD)
3. A dog...yes..i miss Rascal..T.T
4. A standard laptop..WITH a graphics card..@@
5. Enough money so i wont starve to death
6. Nissan Skyline GTR R35
7. Drive that car on autobahn



LoL..see...im just a simple someone...