clearing up stuff

yawnz~~.....exam in ONE WEEEEKkkkkkkkkkk.........studying seems to be the current fashion...have to walk everywhere with book...if not..you are suppose to be not human....anyway....too many people ask who the FUCK is 黃漢文.. ok i have no fking idea myself.. i just combined alot of love stories i had hear all these while...and combined the names too..XD....林麗秀 was suppose to be something else..but after combining the names...it sounded too much like some one else.. so i decided to change the name abit...to prevent any misunderstanding....it has NO REFERENCE WHATSOEVER TO ANY INDIVIDUAL...but maybe reference to MANY individuals......soo complicated i get confused myself..anyway..its just a story.. i made up when i was too fking bored listen too all those frustrating problems from people....gah..lucky i am not in love with anyone..@@....anyway~...ive got much much much to study..think about finishing a subject you have completely no idea about within 2 weeks...and then i have a presentation to do..and im still STUCK STARING AT MY COMPUTER SCREEN...for no apparent reason ... facebook...blogs......yahoo...youtube..msn...youtube.....facebook..
and i need more music more more more more music!!!!...to kick start my studies...MUSIC ANYONE?..

scream..shout..wail~~....again..nobody listens....poor world...if they would only listen..@@...

argh...feeling better....gotta start working now..~~....

黃漢文

你好。我叫黃漢文， 黃色的黃，男子漢的漢，文明的文。當然，我也長得和我名字一樣，堂堂男子漢，文學知識也不錯。今年20嵗，出自于小康之家，所謂小康之家，就是不愁吃不愁穿，但愁追潮流。現在什麽ipod，laptop，什麽名牌衣服，手錶，等等都沒辦法享用。我有一個爸爸，一個媽媽，一個姐姐，還有一個弟弟。家庭狀況還蠻好的。

再18嵗時，我搬到了大學附近，認識了林麗秀，他就住在隔壁第二閒房子。他和名字沒什麽差別，美麗又有秀氣。回想起來，還有點埋怨我父母爲何不幫我取個黃俊聰的名字呢？哈哈哈，當然我喜歡上了麗慧。我還記得那時，我都會陪著他慢慢走到車站，搭上公車，才默默地離開。雖然我們是鄰居，但我都喜歡陪他回家后，先在學校附近打球或打機才甘願回家。慢慢的，我從單單的陪伴著他，變成暗戀她。我當然不敢期望和她在一起，我只是個普通的學生，她卻是個漂亮，很有前途的聰明女孩。就這樣，他到了美國深造，我卻繼續留在大學裏讀完accounting科目。就這樣，我過了兩年。我沒有給他通過電話，自己卻傻傻的每天等著她的電話。朋友都說我很想女孩子，男子不是應該主動一點嗎？我自己也不太明白，也許我們不再見面對大家都好。少些牽挂，少些麻煩。

昨天，她的好朋友打了一通電話給我。語氣十分的緊張.她說：漢文，你有沒有和麗秀通過電話嗎？我說：他沒事吧? 她說: 沒事，只是聽説她好像剛回囯了。明天我生日你來嗎？能的話就叫麗秀一起來喔~ 我說：不好意思，我明天不得空。如果她聯絡我的話，我會通知她。她說：那好吧。明天干啥？怎麽不得空？我說：要到好遠好遠的地方。哈哈哈。
就這樣，我們就挂了電話。

有時候，我想，我是不是很幸福呢？和那些沒手沒腳的人比起來，或者一些家境貧困的，或一些沒了父母的。看著自己，我也沒什麽好埋怨，只有一樣東西我始終放不下。麗秀，你也許回來我也沒辦法在見到你。我希望上帝能在給我多一天讓我告訴你，我愛你。就算你對我完全沒好感，或你已有了喜歡的人，都不重要，我只希望，能在我離開前告訴你這些。但是，我說了這些能幫到什麽嗎？只會讓你更驚慌，更麻煩。


黃漢文于 24 Oct 2009 去世

just for the sake of updating

yawnz~~....long time no new posts....
im seriously wondering how i managed to update like everyday last time
vr vr busy lately..
nope....not studies..but hanging around like some moron
its good in some ways..
get me away from my bloody house and housemates
and bad in other ways
coz i prefer to finish all my serious stuffs at home

so ive got like tons of stuff i have to finish:
-complete the production
-wash my clothes
-cook some nice stuff..@@
-finish my tutorials
-start studying FIM..@@...i havnt even touch
that subject for the whole damn course
-finish my yoon eun hye picture~~(hopefully turns out well)
-start my FIm assignment?..LoL
-and own 2 matches in dota..XD.(havnt REALLY dota'ed in ages)


owh...and i got really bored of my blog..@@.its just congested with too many seriously similar pictures....gahhhh....i hate my photos...need more concepts...more creativity~~...photography is not enough to feed my addiction nowadayz..@@..its just like 2 minutes of arts....the moment you take the picture.. and the moment you edit it....and enjoy it...and its over...so i guess i wont be posting anymore pictures...for awhile...gah~...
dukji dukji dukji...suddenly felt like listening to hard club music

hopefully..by my next post i would have finished my production

jya ne~

squeeze~~

squeezing my brain .....

jbluehawke is starting another amazing production!!