back home

Back home
Everybody's searching for somethin'
But all they can find is a whole lot of nothin'
Back home
Ain't nobody hoping and praying
'Cause they feel like nothing can save 'em
And they try to hold out but they can't fight the fact that
Life goes black when those lights go out
But I guess you gotta just watch out for your own
'Cause ain't a damn thing free
Back home


Back home
we've got a lot of shit on our minds
We're always behind on something cause there's not enough time
And we're non-stop
bottom line
doing what we gotta do to get some food in the fridge and stay out of the hospital
Back home there's people calling us hopeless
People trying to tell us all we need is some focus
But focus
Focus is overrated
Cause you see every blemish and mistake and can't change it

Back Home - Fort Minor



im back home
a home i dont know its home
theres no feeling no more
just like another place i hang out with my friends
ntg to remember me or remind me of
what i was once where i came from
the person i miss i am no longer missing
back home to a home
that feels not like home


^^V~

家?

the good..the bad..the sad...

yay..
coming back 24th
really cant wait
to see all my friends
and my dog..
and my bed...
no more my cressida..LoL


but anyway..dont know what happen
to me
vr vr fucked up
day day emo
for no reason
same thing
over again and again
even when
it really doesnt mean anything
i know it since a long time ago
but i still emo
for what?
i know it wont help
i wasnt like this
this blog was never like this
but now?
maybe
i wasted too much time..
doing nothing
catching air

my life

is as

pathetic as ever

good luck blog

good luck me

good luck ... i need lots of luck

seriously

LOL= lots of luck, lots of love, lots of laughter



LOL....ok..i did laugh after that one....seriously....nah..you wont believe me anyway....

defense of the ancients~

Negk says:
lol
going to play dota with my students
suddenly call me ask me go garena wait
zar dou..
H[翰]nζ says:
Lol
your students dota arr?!?
Negk says:
I guess so
never play with them before
H[翰]nζ says:
waliaoaoooo



few hours later


H[翰]nζ says:
yeos
Lol
so how was the game?
Negk says:
lol
kena own like shit
opponent all friend
then
H[翰]nζ says:
Lol
Negk says:
lose liao
H[翰]nζ says:
they noob?
Negk says:
kena mock by them somemore
er
H[翰]nζ says:
....
Negk says:
my student that one sure die la
0-13 in 30 minutes
choose lion somemore
people sk + riki combo
straight go heaven
stun
smoke
ulti
gone
I level 12
H[翰]nζ says:
hahaha
Negk says:
she level 4
then
she got bring brother
that one quite ok
inetermediate la
you 7 marks, I 7 marks
he about 6.2marks la
H[翰]nζ says:
wah
geng
lol

~ ~ ~ ~

hello there... the angel from my nightmare~~
the shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
And we'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never end....

Don't waste your time on me your already the voice inside my head~~~




blink 182 - miss you

the decision~

i just made a decision... a decision i might regret my whole life...but...i think it is stil worth it.....sad...i so fking stress i cant even convey my feelings in words...ahhhh....wat did i plan to write?...sigh.. cant remember at all....maybe will fill up the blanks when i get my thoughts in the right place...going back to msia soon lor~~~~.....miss misss misss....now i know why single women are called miss xxx....coz you are meant to miss them....^^....

a time to emo

ok..so i have finished my exam..hopefully can continue my production..HOPEFULLY..~~....sigh...but after exams..means i have the right to be emo right??~....right to be emo right?...left to be emo left?....sigh....its pretty confusing..when you are left alone at night..and nobody is around you to tell you what is wrong and rigth...and you know..exactly what you want..but..you cant do what you want..because you know it cant possibly happen...i want... i really want....but i cant tell you what i want....so pathetic...i have been lying to myself .....and to the whole world....i cant show people who i really am...because.. i have been a lie all the time...from the time my parents started teaching me..from the moment society decided what was right....there is no way.. society will accept my ways...there is no way i can do what i want in life...there is no way.. i can change what people think .....sigh... what can i do?..continue this life as a lie??...everytime... i try to shout...but the poor world doesnt listen....why?....WHY DOESNT THE WORLD LISTEN?.......emo emo emo....shout to the world the 'n'th time now....LISTEN PLZ...~~...DONT MAKE THIS WORLD LIKE WHAT IT IS~......everytime i try to be like the world.... i just feel so miserable.....maybe... i have to be forced to live like the world.....sigh...sad life.....or maybe .. i should just extinct...species like me should just extinct....and be kicked out by evolution....let the world..continue its course...and be what it wants to be....

gone for the week

i will be gone...to a place..so faraway......good bye world.....at least until the end of this saturday...

red bean

what i want...

LOL...some people ask me..what do i really want in life...
well..not much just:

1. A simple place to shield me from the cold hot wind sun
2. A friend that understands me...(preferably a girl so she can be my wife..XD)
3. A dog...yes..i miss Rascal..T.T
4. A standard laptop..WITH a graphics card..@@
5. Enough money so i wont starve to death
6. Nissan Skyline GTR R35
7. Drive that car on autobahn



LoL..see...im just a simple someone...

clearing up stuff

yawnz~~.....exam in ONE WEEEEKkkkkkkkkkk.........studying seems to be the current fashion...have to walk everywhere with book...if not..you are suppose to be not human....anyway....too many people ask who the FUCK is 黃漢文.. ok i have no fking idea myself.. i just combined alot of love stories i had hear all these while...and combined the names too..XD....林麗秀 was suppose to be something else..but after combining the names...it sounded too much like some one else.. so i decided to change the name abit...to prevent any misunderstanding....it has NO REFERENCE WHATSOEVER TO ANY INDIVIDUAL...but maybe reference to MANY individuals......soo complicated i get confused myself..anyway..its just a story.. i made up when i was too fking bored listen too all those frustrating problems from people....gah..lucky i am not in love with anyone..@@....anyway~...ive got much much much to study..think about finishing a subject you have completely no idea about within 2 weeks...and then i have a presentation to do..and im still STUCK STARING AT MY COMPUTER SCREEN...for no apparent reason ... facebook...blogs......yahoo...youtube..msn...youtube.....facebook..
and i need more music more more more more music!!!!...to kick start my studies...MUSIC ANYONE?..

scream..shout..wail~~....again..nobody listens....poor world...if they would only listen..@@...

argh...feeling better....gotta start working now..~~....

黃漢文

你好。我叫黃漢文， 黃色的黃，男子漢的漢，文明的文。當然，我也長得和我名字一樣，堂堂男子漢，文學知識也不錯。今年20嵗，出自于小康之家，所謂小康之家，就是不愁吃不愁穿，但愁追潮流。現在什麽ipod，laptop，什麽名牌衣服，手錶，等等都沒辦法享用。我有一個爸爸，一個媽媽，一個姐姐，還有一個弟弟。家庭狀況還蠻好的。

再18嵗時，我搬到了大學附近，認識了林麗秀，他就住在隔壁第二閒房子。他和名字沒什麽差別，美麗又有秀氣。回想起來，還有點埋怨我父母爲何不幫我取個黃俊聰的名字呢？哈哈哈，當然我喜歡上了麗慧。我還記得那時，我都會陪著他慢慢走到車站，搭上公車，才默默地離開。雖然我們是鄰居，但我都喜歡陪他回家后，先在學校附近打球或打機才甘願回家。慢慢的，我從單單的陪伴著他，變成暗戀她。我當然不敢期望和她在一起，我只是個普通的學生，她卻是個漂亮，很有前途的聰明女孩。就這樣，他到了美國深造，我卻繼續留在大學裏讀完accounting科目。就這樣，我過了兩年。我沒有給他通過電話，自己卻傻傻的每天等著她的電話。朋友都說我很想女孩子，男子不是應該主動一點嗎？我自己也不太明白，也許我們不再見面對大家都好。少些牽挂，少些麻煩。

昨天，她的好朋友打了一通電話給我。語氣十分的緊張.她說：漢文，你有沒有和麗秀通過電話嗎？我說：他沒事吧? 她說: 沒事，只是聽説她好像剛回囯了。明天我生日你來嗎？能的話就叫麗秀一起來喔~ 我說：不好意思，我明天不得空。如果她聯絡我的話，我會通知她。她說：那好吧。明天干啥？怎麽不得空？我說：要到好遠好遠的地方。哈哈哈。
就這樣，我們就挂了電話。

有時候，我想，我是不是很幸福呢？和那些沒手沒腳的人比起來，或者一些家境貧困的，或一些沒了父母的。看著自己，我也沒什麽好埋怨，只有一樣東西我始終放不下。麗秀，你也許回來我也沒辦法在見到你。我希望上帝能在給我多一天讓我告訴你，我愛你。就算你對我完全沒好感，或你已有了喜歡的人，都不重要，我只希望，能在我離開前告訴你這些。但是，我說了這些能幫到什麽嗎？只會讓你更驚慌，更麻煩。


黃漢文于 24 Oct 2009 去世

just for the sake of updating

yawnz~~....long time no new posts....
im seriously wondering how i managed to update like everyday last time
vr vr busy lately..
nope....not studies..but hanging around like some moron
its good in some ways..
get me away from my bloody house and housemates
and bad in other ways
coz i prefer to finish all my serious stuffs at home

so ive got like tons of stuff i have to finish:
-complete the production
-wash my clothes
-cook some nice stuff..@@
-finish my tutorials
-start studying FIM..@@...i havnt even touch
that subject for the whole damn course
-finish my yoon eun hye picture~~(hopefully turns out well)
-start my FIm assignment?..LoL
-and own 2 matches in dota..XD.(havnt REALLY dota'ed in ages)


owh...and i got really bored of my blog..@@.its just congested with too many seriously similar pictures....gahhhh....i hate my photos...need more concepts...more creativity~~...photography is not enough to feed my addiction nowadayz..@@..its just like 2 minutes of arts....the moment you take the picture.. and the moment you edit it....and enjoy it...and its over...so i guess i wont be posting anymore pictures...for awhile...gah~...
dukji dukji dukji...suddenly felt like listening to hard club music

hopefully..by my next post i would have finished my production

jya ne~

squeeze~~

squeezing my brain .....

jbluehawke is starting another amazing production!!

victor harbour in pictures

就那麽一點感觸~

夕陽無限好..只是近黃昏~~

my boss my hero~

my 3rd yakuza art after being inspired by "my boss my hero"

The EMO survey

H[翰]nζ says:
eh..what does emo mean?
LiMcHeE [a.k.a] 0738 [a.k.a] rimuchihon [a.k.a] sly [a.k.a] BaBiLand ^(oo)^™ says:
emo lo
H[翰]nζ says:
LoL...can elaborate ar?
LiMcHeE [a.k.a] 0738 [a.k.a] rimuchihon [a.k.a] sly [a.k.a] BaBiLand ^(oo)^™ says:
emoemoemo
H[翰]nζ says:
GENG!!



H[翰]nζ says:
eh
i ask you one question
define emo
what does emo mean
Flyin' Without WingS says:
can be defined in many ways
H[翰]nζ says:
lol..give example lar~
Flyin' Without WingS says:
like XXXX, it is somesort of sadness, moody, n o mood, alone, lonely....
H[翰]nζ says:
owh..thx...^^
Flyin' Without WingS says:
yyy
like for XXX leh,,
erm
H[翰]nζ says:
err~
Flyin' Without WingS says:
emo is like being abondoned, no body wants,



H[翰]nζ says:
eh
i ask you one question
what does emo mean?
. says:
erm
feel like exploding
H[翰]nζ says:
care to elaborate?
. says:
erm
like..
u feel like saying sumthg
but u cant



H[翰]nζ says:
eh...what does emo mean?
Dom-o says:
emotional?
H[翰]nζ says:
LOL...can elaborate ar?
Dom-o says:
hmm its a feeling to describe a person as emotionally weak and is in a consistently depressed spell
haha i think
...many a times over the smallest of matters



Dalai- scrim scrim..lalala~ said:
emotional
H[翰]nζ said:
Lol..care to elaborate?
Dalai- scrim scrim..lalala~ said:
huh?..
emotional la
overly sad...overly angry...
overly la


H[翰]nζ says:
can ask you wat emo means?
~咖啡樹- Joie de vivre says:
emotional?
H[翰]nζ says:
care to elaboratE?
~咖啡樹- Joie de vivre says:
err..
of or relating to a person's emotions : children with emotional difficulties.
• arousing or characterized by intense feeling : an emotional speech.
• (of a person) having feelings that are easily excited and openly displayed : he was a strongly emotional young man.
• based on emotion rather than reason : sound reason, not an emotional knee-jerk response, is the best recipe for making decisions.

i'm about to go out actually
H[翰]nζ says:
hahaha..thx..can i put that in my blog?
~咖啡樹- Joie de vivre says:
sure
from the dictionary


H[翰]nζ says:
hey..you free?
ahwei says:
depends
H[翰]nζ says:
LoL...just one question
what does emo mean?
ahwei says:
emotional lo
H[翰]nζ says:
can elaborate abit more?
ahwei says:
look depressive
H[翰]nζ says:
haha...thx alot..can i put that on my blog?
ahwei says:
very down
ok wait ar
sure
H[翰]nζ says:
haha..thx~
ahwei says:
emo is a psychological developmental stage where teenagers are especially rebellion
http://incredimazing.com/page/Emo_Fail
and their fashion look like that link i just sent you
H[翰]nζ says:
hahahaha...thx for the resource
ahwei says:
observe his hairstyle,all emo ppl must conform to that style in order to be qualified in the emo social group
google lo


H[翰]nζ says:
hey..you free?
Clarence Wyng says:
hey
yea
H[翰]nζ says:
can i ask you wat emo means?
Clarence Wyng says:
wats up
lol
emo?
lol...
H[翰]nζ says:
ya ya..wat you think it means
?
Clarence Wyng is offline
Clarence Wyng said:
lol
hahahaha
hehehe
use wat?
lol



H[翰]nζ says:
eh..you free/
Kien Seng says:
now>?
H[翰]nζ says:
just one question
what is emo?
Kien Seng says:
emo????
errrr...
i dun really know myself.
i just use it indiscriminately...



H[翰]nζ says:
eh..you free ar?
Chin Ling says:
ok lohh
why
H[翰]nζ says:
can ask you one question?
what is emo?
Chin Ling says:
=.="
why u suddenly ask this kind of thing
emo is being down lar
everything u think is negative
anything can upset u
should be gua



H[翰]nζ
eh..you free?
Jo En
er ok ok la
Jo En
y ah
H[翰]nζ
can ask one question arr
H[翰]nζ
what is emo?
Jo En
emotional?
H[翰]nζ
can elaborate mar?
Jo En
sad lor
Jo En
feeling down n blue


H[翰]nζ says:
lol..can ask you one question?
[b] [c=39]【ɥıʎ ƃuıɥɔ】如果这是我爱你最好的距离 我愿意永远的离开你 [/b] [/c=68] says:
yea
H[翰]nζ says:
wat is emo?
[b] [c=39]【ɥıʎ ƃuıɥɔ】如果这是我爱你最好的距离 我愿意永远的离开你 [/b] [/c=68] says:
emotional
normally they say emo = down


H[翰]nζ says:
what is emo?
--SCC · 谨全-- Point! Crossing my heart to tell u that it's really Up as a wonderful work. ^^ says:
Emotional?
Lol.
H[翰]nζ says:
elaborate lor~
--SCC · 谨全-- Point! Crossing my heart to tell u that it's really Up as a wonderful work. ^^ says:
But wat most ppl means is feeling down or annoyed.


provided by:
limchee
alvin
HR
Dom
Dalai
coffee tree
kwei
clarence?LOL
kienseng
chinling
joen
chingyih
scc

童話

d - ing ding ding~~

forgot got how 久
再 no listen you
對我 say you 最愛的 story

i think very 久
i start to 恍惚
是不是 i got do any mistake?

you cry and 對我說
story 裏 all is lying 的
impossible i be your 王子

maybe you wouldnt know
since you say 愛我 after
我的天空
star star 都 bright 了~


i want to be
story 裏
你愛的那個 angel
open my arms
變成 wings to protect 你

you must相信
believe we will be like 童話 story 裏
幸福 and happy is 結局

20th of august

ive decided to make today....my art day..XD....


every year on the 20th of august.. i will crack my brain to create some awesome art for myself and hopefully it will be posted up 2mr...XD



w00t...

-.-"

H[翰]anζ says:
i am guai zai..
i dont know what is sperm
____________________________________________________________ says:
lol
doink~
H[翰]anζ says:
sperm can cook one ar?
____________________________________________________________ says:
can
can be made into agar agar
H[翰]anζ says:
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
____________________________________________________________ says:
neh
the white agar
no colouring
and super natural

love life

ok.. i lied...i finished the video today..XD.....enjoy..

bad english

sigh

i have no idea why some lecturers cant speak good english..


"when vi infest in these securities we calcoolate the price by mooltiplying..."


zerg infestation..@@

Coming soon..

JBluehawke presents:

Love life

15 of august 2009

ONLY IN http://eatfulllntg2do.blogspot.com

self love

eye contact

hmm.. this is not about wearing contact lenses..Lol

i just realised i have problem looking at somebody in the eyes..
everytime i speak
i look elsewhere...pointing this.. looking at that...
just to avoid eye contact with the subject im communicating with
no idea why....
i just feel so scared when somebody look at me in the eye...
and i would say something funny to look away..or make him/her lookaway..
or probably laugh..

anybody knows why??

then people think im not respecting them..@@

look around you

i wonder.. how many people do we come across...
how many people do we meet..
what is our first impression of some people...
fate is an amazing thing...
sometimes.. we meet some people
we laugh.. we had fun
then we forget about them.. we move on.. and we have more fun...
then relationships change..
the person you had fun with .. is no longer funny
and you dont see them anymore
then you forget them...
and you move on..

or you hate them
you change your opinions
because you cant stand to take of your mask
you keep your distance
and you dont want to see them again

or you fall in love with them
you cant forget them
you would die for them


then you think..
what would they think of you
did you even influenced their life that little bit
or they hated you so much..coz you ruin their life
or you hope that you never met them
and you dont want them to even remember you

look around you

people walk here and there.. and its that distance that makes life interesting

harvey norman

go harvey norman go!!

right now

i feel like flying down MRR 2 at 140kmph in my dad's cressida again...


let the adrenaline pump my troubles away..

brain washing ownself

the world.. is always full of illusions...
that we think are truths...

lets make an example

money is everything

ok.. so you have lots of money..
then one day
you got killed by some lunatic
hmm.. so much money.... for what?



in the same concept
results are everything
you need good results to have a good career and future
so this one day...
michael jackson became the president of US
cultural revolution.. like the one in china..Lol
hmm.. what good are doctors then..

ok.. i know i have to take a supplementary exam...
brain washing ah.. brain washing...
T.T

think write speak

i just realise.. i think faster than i can speak or write....i always..think something in my head way ahead before i even speak out... so speaking seriously would me would be like....ok... we should stop doing that...what is that?... owh.. i mean.. bla bla bla...what is bla bla bla... that thing that causes that and that and that...ohh... so why should we stop doing that...and it goes on.... and if i ask somebody is that the direction of the university?.. people would most likely ask.. why dont i just ask where the university is... because i am already thinking that should be the direction of the university and if that is not the direction i am in a completely puzzled state and should seek further help from a map or have a real good chat with that stranger to find my way out...and if i ask where is the university.. the person would most like point me in that same direction...tell me how long more to go...and end up stumbling on his words and maybe lead me in the wrong direction....now you would be thinking why do i think so much?...i dont know...that is why i can only talk kok and cant be serious at all.. or you guys would be thinking im from another planet...erm.. you guys should be already thinking now..after reading this post...why do i even put it up.....this was becuz i was so puzzled why i cant console somebody by words but i have the whole logic in my head and i just keep saying.. you will be alright ... you will be alright...haha ha ha hahaha and oh..because ive got soo much pics in my blog tat blocks up so much of my quota..LOL... gahh.. i cant even write out a good piece of essay because its all like common sense to me...i would probably write 5 points and repeat them again and again in differnet words..@@..smoking is not good for health.. it causes health problems...health conscious people dont smoke...dont smoke...it kills....and so on and on...because its like all i can write out...@@...although my mind thinks about lung cancer...bad ingredients of cigarettes...2nd hand smoke...gahhh.. i need something to read my mind

glenelg....again and again..

the bird with the broken wing

119 BEAUMONT 100 perweek for a room!~!

once again.. i have to promote this house at the foothills of Beaumont a very exclusive area...

it is AWESOME.. and you have like a mountain just above you.. and DONT WORRY.. NO LANDSLIDES.. the place is covered with trees... no deforestations...vr nice scenary and fresh air.. very cheap.... FULLY FURNISHED INCLUDES WATER AND ELECTRICITY~!! and BUS 143 RIGHT IN FRONT of the quiet road


just look at the stuff you would see in the neighbourhood

no idea what this is...

i bought a guitar

yeah.. i suddenly..heart blood come tide.. bought a guitar..@@...it cost like 250aud.. and i bought it.. coz.. i got ntg better to do.. this happens vr often lately... and i lost track of the ammount of real expensive stuff i bought this year...lol.. and i bought a pair of seinnheiser headphones coz the tdk "life on record" headphones have no sound after 2 weeks.. and i so happen to misplace my receipt...and they wont change it for me...and they even thought i stole the SPOILT tdk phones out of their store...OMG..man.. really "life on record"...dont ever buy tdk headphones...ahhh...stress stresss.. omg.. im more less stressed during the exams actually...


o ya.. anybody.. wants to shift to BEAUMONT please let me know..100PER WEEK.. its the cheapest in whole damn adelaide...WITH ELECTRICITY AND WATER...FULLY FURNISHED WITH TV TO WATCH MASTERCHEF...143 bus stop RIGHT IN FRONT.....house situated half way up the hill.. VERY EXCLUSIVE AREA...man..its so good you cant miss it...only valid until 18th of july... HURRY WHILE STOCK LASTS...










Lol...goes back to play his guitar..~~....

结果咧 结果咧 结果咧

la la la la

havnt been blogging in awhile... coz.. exams.. and something bad happen...yesh...something vr vr vr vr vr bad... omg.. you dont know how bad it is.. anyway.... its exams.. and i am doing every single thing EXCEPT studying... and i got so bored.. i took out all my photos in US to have a look and re edit them... hmm.. i would really love to go back to US again... man.....thats what life should be ...LoL...

pics remod

just when i thought i have been through hell

ok.. its swot vac... anyone knows whats that?..its like a GREAT FRIGGING vacation where you have to study for your finals in a week...and guess what i did during swot vac when i have a new house with no internet, no clothes, and one business finance textbook...yeh.. i went shopping..@@..bought lots of stuff...and spend lots of money...gah.. and the speakers they sell in adelaide seriously SUCK.. man.. where are those altec lansings....anywayz...just went i thought ive been through everything... i saw this article about the holocaust.. which you guys who dont know whats that should read..
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Holocaust
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nazi_human_experimentation
http://www.buzzle.com/articles/nazi-medical-experiments.html

ok.. now i know where those peverse logic in cartoons and james bond movie came out from...

sigh...

a long long week...

too much to talk about right now.. ill just post some pictures up anyway...

T.T.... i cant upload my pics on photobucket from my uni internet...

gah...no more HQ(High quality and high quotaLOL) pic

me

trying to enhance my art of "自拍" ing....hahahaha

i got it from my mamak

JJ, where'd you get your canai from?
Rudy, where'd you get your maggi from?
JJ, where'd you get your tosai from?
Rudy, where'd you get your curry from?

I got it from my mamak! I got it from my mamak! I got it from my mamak! I got it got it got it...

LMAO~!~

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i hate to move on... but i dont think i have a choice this time

i have no idea.. why am i so emo nowadayz...but i know im going to lose my mind vr soon... im going to get into trouble again.....haihhh... plz.......get away from me!!!
SOMEBODY HELP ME~~

*ding*

la la la la la has left the game

rain clouds and me